Saturday, April 15, 2017

#ATOZCHALLENGE: M IS FOR MY SO-CALLED LIFE




Jordan Catalano, JC, Jesus Christ, Easter eve, this can't be a coincidence...

i don't recognize Claire Danes now. she's blonde. she must be a spy. the only Claire Danes i will ever recognize is Angela. and not just Angela. Angela with the red hair. and not just Angela with the red hair. Angela with that certain bottle of red hair that was her own, it was like a dark strawberry color. Angela with the Angela hair. Angela with the good hair.

we all know the lore of this show. it came out of nowhere on ABC and changed life as we know it. it wasn't so-called, if anything it was too real. the show grows in legend because of its status of having only that one year. that's what makes it not another show, it takes on this mythic quality, the episodes become sacred because there are so few, you pore over each episode line by line second by second memorizing that precious script because all the words are brilliant. you must savor these characters, the time they are in, the era, the mood, the freedoms since continued and taken away, the attitudes hence betrayed and removed. our hearts hurt as we watch the last episode because we know in the back of our ponytailed heads that these wonderful people aren't coming back for a second season. whatever cliffhanger threads will be forever left unresolved. we can only imagine what it would have been like. fanfiction only goes so far to ease our suffering. thus this show rests on an otherworldly ethereal cloud, forever frozen in time, never bending to the passage of time and future memes but rather locked in grunge teenage rebellion forever. not even Kurt Cobain could maintain such a feat.

in a debate with Skins this is the greatest depiction of school ever. it's raw, real without being phony, and bullshit-cutting. Angela is the quintessential moody teen, forever basking in a plaid shirt and the embodiment of '90s youth. she wants to fuck Jordan Catalano but who doesn't want to fuck Jordan Catalano, it's Jordan Catalano. i wanted to fuck Jordan Catalano by the end of it.

btw who knew Jared Leto would later go on to form a real band? and not like a cheap Hollywood band like Randy Quaid's dungeon music, a good band, on par with Imagine Dragons or whatever. it all started when Jordan Catalano was in a band.

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she'll do that with Leo later. Bess Armstrong plays the milf i mean mom Patty, who wants desperately to speak to her aging daughter on her level, wants to connect with her on a deep level, but can't, because it's impossible. that's what makes the mother/daughter dynamic in literature so enticing, no matter how much the mom wants it, she will never be young the same way her daughter is young. instead she gives disapproving looks and her voice is filled with condescending tones, their fights are magic relish.

Wilson Cruz's Rickie is the most fascinating of the bunch. he was electric on screen, flamboyant and fierce and fabulous. his presence didn't chew the scenery, it digested it. this was maybe the first time you were witnessing a gay person on screen and having to reckon with the fact that he was a person like you or me. he became your sidekick despite yourself cos he was cool. he got bullied, savagely. that's when you knew this was a show. he became everyone's gay best friend. and Wilson is a cool dude, he liked all the insta comments of a pic of him discussing this show in the caption on Cecily's page one time.

there is no one more dangerous than a righteous sadsack virgin. enter Brian Krakow, whom they played well as the childhood friend of Angela. the neighbor who as they both grow up strains the bond when you start looking for real relationships. suddenly he's the creepy neighbor with the weird jewfro shunted to the side by the cool band frontman bad boy, even though he knows her better. fraught friends and this happens with everyone i think as they mature. it's those unrequited casualties that you have to own up to. you change but how much are you willing to change? i remember that intro and him riding his bike at night and i decided to ride my bike at night for the first time. i wasn't into questionable photography however...

Devon Gummersall, i'm sure he was called Gumby at one point.

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those are truly lauded strains of music. Rayanne Graf the second coming of Janis Joplin.

Catalano who has a secret, i wish they would have had Catalano not say any lines and just look achingly across the room to Angela all the time for effect, he was a pro of the unspoken enticing bored sigh.

Cherski the casualty of the female persuasion. Sharon is the good girl mom wants for Angela but of course those damn hormones have to kick in. she reminded me of Ashley from Degrassi. i wanted to see Sharon become a goth mistress of the night and keep of vial of Catalano's blood around her heart. sigh, the second season...

Danielle the sister. now you know how most shows have the younger sister be preternaturally smart or smartass but this one deserves to be. she's the runt of the litter and gets trashed on. she tries to avoid it but always ends up in the line of fire between mom and her older sister's fits and just wants to have rants of her own. she just wants to eat her sprouts at the dinner table in peace. sarcasm is her tool. she would undoubtedly have become a narrator in her later years. i felt sorry for her by the end, she sees Angela as her future and it scares her.

Graham the put-upon dad (all show dads are put-upon) who coincidentally also wears a plaid shirt.

Tino who is talked about but never seen (i love this Heather Sinclair trope in television) who probably looks exactly like Michael Jackson.

i remember years after the fact watching repeats of this beloved show on MTV. maybe MTV can get its act together and do the second season as planned and be relevant again.

is there a suicide? maybe. some current shows are following this lead pretty well if you know what i mean.

there's angst and then there's Angela angst.

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other contenders for the throne: Mad TV but it's too much, it's a blur after Stuart and Darrell, what happened to the brilliant Nicole Randall Johnson? i am truly alarmed at the reboot. Mad About You but where is Paul Reiser right now? watching Rachel Maddow. Mr. Meaty cos that was a thing with puppets i watched and felt i didn't need to work at a mall food court anymore after, i had the experience. wanted to continue with the show but Nick graveyarded the remaining episodes or cancelled them without telling anyone most likely. and Mama's Family which i adored but largely forgot, i always thought it a strange treat whenever Eunice showed up not knowing any of the show's Carol Burnett Show past, that came later for me.

but Iola, sweet Iola from Mama's Family. i have to remark because i will distinctly never forget. that stirring speech Iola gives about lost love in the Hawaii episode, landmark. cos you never pictured sweet ol' nobody neighbor lady with the poodle skirt and pearls to feel so movingly. i connected with Iola on a spiritual level.

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2 comments:

Jules said...

That sounds like Grange Hill on acid. Or Hell Dust. *)

the late phoenix said...

watching Grange Hill while on acid is on my bucket list *)